I Can Count to Five

I am itching to do something, but I don’t know what.  I feel like I need to go run a marathon, or record an album, or scream in the backyard until my lungs collapse.  The world is so big, and I want to be part of it.  In my little space, I feel a little lost and closed in.  Maybe I will learn to play the violin and then perform in front of millions of people, changing some of them forever with my sad and desperate melodies.  Maybe I will paint something so beautiful that onlookers can do nothing but weep.  Moved.  There is something great for me in this world.  I just have to find it.

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1. Mommie

2. Wife

3. Gardener

4. Conception

5. Reflection

6. Homesick

This exercise was WAY TOO HARD.  What is wrong with me that I can’t even describe myself and my life???  Am I aloof?  Am I so boring a person that I can’t even come up with 6 measly words to describe me?  Sometimes I feel like I need to take a lie detector test just to see what I am really feeling.  HA!  Maybe I should look into that…

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Okay.  Admittedly, I have carried around a lot of superfluous guilt most of my life, but since I became a mom it has just become ridiculous.  I am now able to conjure up guilt from just about any situation in life.  Take, for instance, my incident with a spider while I was gardening a few days ago.  I have always been terrified of small bugs (mainly for the unlikely possibility that they will crawl into and dwell in one of my orifices).  So, when I saw a spider next to me the other day, I almost automatically started slamming my garden trowel down on it.  What I realized after I had brutally murdered her was that she was pregnant; her belly was round, full of thousands of baby spiders.  I had just killed a mommy spider…. a MOMMY… just a mom trying to make it in the world and raise her young… oh, the guilt!!!  I nearly cried with shame and agony over what I had done.  In one moment, life was gone.  I took it away.  Just like that.  Well, at least I am still able to kill a gnat without a major crisis of conscience.

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So Hope and I are sitting here… she’s eating cereal and I’m looking up domain names.  It’s after 8 and Liam has been in bed for over an hour.  He’s up now.

Always the hard question… do you go up there and comfort him or do you let him work it out on his own?

What do you do?

We register domain names and then post a blog… what happens next … is a mystery.

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A few months ago we bit the bullet and went ahead and ordered ourselves an iRobot Roomba.  Best investment we ever made.  Granted, it’s not as deep-cleaning as our Dyson is, but the fact that it cleans on a regular schedule is a godsend.  Every day all the cat hair and liam droppings are cleaned up on a timer.  This is why we love Bob (yes, we named it).

Sadly, Bob had an injury.  One of the gear/bearing things on the Roomba got ground out somehow - I think we lost one of the pieces or didn’t put it together right or something.  Anyway, we called iRobot customer service and had one of our best customer service experiences ever - they replaced all of Bob, except for the battery and dust bin, with a brand new unit.  Awesome.

So Bob II came, and the dustbin was a little different style and didn’t fit perfectly.  Called customer service, they’re replacing it for us too.

Basically, if you can, go get a Roomba.  If you have problems, they’ll help you.

One word of caution though - don’t use a Scooba (iRobot floor cleaner robot… ours was named Norbert) on hardwood floors.  It isn’t made for them - at least not ours.  If we would have read all the things saying “do not use this on [our floor]” it would have been ok.  But we didn’t… and now we have to figure out how to refinish our floors.

Then again, it could have been the wax we applied, which we also were not supposed to do…

Anyone know how to fix a polyurethane coated hardwood floor that a dumb husband (me) put wax on?

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That’s all - I just miss my family.

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Okay, here we go.  This is my first ever blog post.  I am not quite sure how or where to start, so I guess I will begin by telling you all what I am doing right now.  I am sitting on the couch in my livng room watching my 14-month-old son swing around the Wii remote at 9:30 in the morning.  He woke up a little before 6:30am, so he is almost ready to go down for his first nap of the day.  As we speak he is finding objects from around the room - magazine, matchbox car, receipt - and stacking them next to me.  I guess this is his way of giving presents?  Of course, I oblige and say, “Oh, thank you so much, Liam!  Mommie has always wanted a Best Buy receipt.”  He smiles at my gratitude and, with pride in his eyes, gives me another two minutes of uninterrupted peace (after which he starts whining for my attention and pointing to things he wants but cannot or will not get by himself).  Ohp, here he is again, and he smells like poop.  Gotta go.

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